a beautiful wreck

camp life is crazy--six days a week jim and i are pretty much on unless we're asleep. it's been an especially difficult month with dylan being sick and sleepless on top of all the normal camp demands. on a "normal" day, dylan is a super-easy baby; she's a good sleeper, a good eater, happy and playful. really, we've been spoiled. but there are so many variables, and when life happens, our easy baby is not so easy anymore.

dylan has been impossible to put to sleep lately. our little angel has become an obstinate little thing! we've spent hours battling with bedtimes, helplessly knowing that the situation deteriorates with each waking hour that passes. we've prayed and prayed and prayed and felt defeated, angry, and hopelessly frustrated. it hasn't been pretty.

after much protest, dylan slept long and deeply last night and is napping now, praise God. this morning i read this passage in 1 kings 8:56-61.

Praise be to the LORD, who has given rest to his people Israel just as he promised. Not one word has failed of all the good promises he gave through his servant Moses. May the LORD our God be with us as he was with our fathers; may he never leave us nor forsake us. May he turn our hearts to him, to walk in all his ways and to keep the commands, decrees and regulations he gave our fathers. And may these words of mine, which I have prayed before the LORD, be near to the LORD our God day and night, that he may uphold the cause of his servant and the cause of his people Israel according to each day's need, so that all the peoples of the earth may know that the LORD is God and that there is no other. But your hearts must be fully committed to the LORD our God, to live by his decrees and obey his commands, as at this time.

God is so good, upholding the cause of his people according to each day's need, giving rest just as he promised. thank you for your faithfulness, mercy, and provision. forgive my lack of commitment, and turn my heart toward you, that i may walk with you this day.